Forgot to write yesterday. Well actually it is not that I forgot to write, but that I got home late and was tired and needed to pay attention to the dogs. I decided to do everything else first and save the writing for last. And then I forgot.
Yesterday was an interesting day. After talking to Daniel on Friday I came to the realization that I am alone for now and probably will be for who knows how long. The thing that scares me the most is that no one knows where I am or if I am safe. Where am I going, with whom, did I get home without a problem, did I fall in the house, am I sick, do I need help. I called the kids and was able to speak to Josh and Dan - I will speak to Jessica today when I pick her up to go to the play. I told the boys my concerns. I said that each Saturday I would send them a detailed schedule, including names, addresses, and contact information of what I plan to do for the week. I also asked them to set up a schedule to rotate a check-in text or phone call so that they know I am alive and safe at home at the end of the day. The boys agreed -- but no one contacted me last night. Wonder when they are planning to start.
Yesterday evening I went to a "Foosball, Ping-Pong, and Potluck Dinner" meetup through the meetup group "Alive and Kickin'". Everyone was asked to bring a dish to be shared or other party supplies. I made my pasta-tuna casserole.
The party was at a private home in West Orange. The place was TINY and there must have been around 50 people at this party. When I drove up at 6:00 PM there were a number of dorky looking men going into the house -- unfortunately, they looked like they were in their late seventies or eighties. I almost turned around and left. But I was there already, braced myself, and went in. Are meetups the haven for men who can't get dates on J-Date or Match.com? Sure felt like that!
I met a number of lovely women with whom I spent most of my time. Even spent some time playing ping-pong (I'm terrible). But I didn't have a one-on-one conversation with any of the men. Do I give off vibes that say "stay away from me"? Must be. One of the women said I must be really new at this because I looked like I didn't want to be there. This is proof that I was never the actress in the family.
By 9:15 I was tired and knew that I had at least a 30 minute drive home, dogs to contend with, and the need to get up today to go to the play. Plus, I had already spoken to the women who I could get along with and none of the men interested me or were interested in me. That guy Bob who has been sending me email through the meetup group since the meetup dinner at the Mexican Place was there - but he creeps me out and I have no interest in responding to his interest. I made my goodbyes and left while the party was going strong.
Although I am not ready to sign up on J-date or Match.com and try my hand at one-on-one dating, I am getting the feeling that large mixers may not be my thing. I don't know how to mix and make small talk. Oh well, I am signed up for a bunch of other meetups with other groups. I'll either find my niche or have to move on.
At the moment I have to get ready to pick up Jessica so we can go to the Papermill to see "Honeymoon in Vegas".
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