Our Date - and It Is Over!

David and I set up a date weeks ago so we could go out to dinner and talk.  Much to my surprise, he didn't weasel out of it and actually made reservations at the Plukemin Inn.  And we went! 

Over drinks I told him about Daniel and Caroline's news - just wanted to make sure that he doesn't blurt anything out about Josh and Lauren's news when Daniel tells him on Monday.  After drinks we shared a beautiful price fixed dinner.  Everything was fine until we got home.  Then I managed to fall into the same pitfall I always fall into by asking him if he wanted to do this again in another 6 or 7 weeks.  Instead of getting a straight forward yes or no he said that we would talk about it on Monday.  Bullshit!  What is this Monday business.  He does not want to see me again -- but instead of just coming out and saying it he once again decided it was easier to bullshit and avoid confrontation by putting off the decision until Monday. Well that was such apparent bullshit that it caused a fight and he left.  This is so over!

Definitely time to look for someone else to date - not to marry -- I am not letting David out of his obligation to support me in the style I deserve for the rest of my life.  He wants to remain friends so we can do family things together -- but I don't want him there anymore to taint my time with my family.  He claims "family" is the kids and doesn't include me.  Bullshit!  Bullshit!  Bullshit!

I will not roll over and die!  I will not move over and let him push me out of a roll in my family!  I will not let him go on and do whatever he wants!  I want half plus of everything including half of his current earnings; I want my car; I want my house;  I want everything I worked for all these years!  Let him sit alone with his fat office manager to comfort him.  This is enough already.  If he is not capable of having dinner with me on a regular basis then we are not friends -- and I will no longer watch his back.  Actually will prefer it if he no longer shows up when I am there -- but since I will always be there, he can crawl into a hole and stay there!  Forever!!!!