I Don't Want Them If They Want Me

There are times now when I actually question my sanity.  All I wanted last week was for someone to hire me for a part time job  -- anyone!  Now that I am finally getting call backs, I don't know if I actually want to do this! 

Yesterday I had a last minute "interview" with the hiring manager at Stop and Shop down the street.  There are two part-time positions available:  one at their Starbucks stand (absolutely no way) and one as a cashier.  Might have a slight interest in the cashier job, but the hours don't interest me at all.  They are looking for someone to work mid-shift which consists of 4-6 hour shifts from around 12:00 PM to 6:00 PM Monday through Saturday.  According to the hiring manager, part-time at Stop and Shop means of 18 to 39 hours of work per week. I don't want to first start leaving work after 6:00 PM six days each week.  This would mean I couldn't help out with Natalie or Sabrina, that my visits with Jacob would end, and that dinner with any of my children would probably come to an end.  Activities such as book clubs, dinner with friends, and any possible future dating would grind to a halt.  I want a part-time job that gets me out of bed in the morning.  I don't mind covering evening or weekends occasionally, but not every day.  When the hiring manager asked me to write down my daily and hourly availability, I marked that I was only available until 5:00 PM -- I don't expect to hear back from her.

Had dinner with an acquaintance, Sharon, from Prudential.  She is divorced and has been for years.  Her advice was to forgo any work for pay.  She said that if David and I eventually divorced,  it would not be in my best interest to show that I was capable of getting a job.  "If you need to get out of the house, do volunteer work".  Ironically, when I got home, there was a message from the hiring manager of Barnes and Nobles in Livingston.  I am tempted to call back and hear what this is about.  If I were to work for Barnes and Nobles, I would prefer working at the one that is near here -- but they won't start looking at applications until next week at the earliest (or so I was told when I went in earlier this week).  But given Sharon's advice, should I talk to them or tell them I am no longer interested.

Help!