Somebody Wants Me

Yesterday I picked up Natalie at gymnastics camp and we went over to Josh and Lauren's house to play with Jacob and give Emma, the Aux Pair, a break.  I do this every Wednesday -- pick Natalie up from one activity or another, then take her over to play with Jacob.  David meets us there each Wednesday except the one Wednesday a month that he has a Q&M meeting.  Yesterday was his one Wednesday a month.

I am also starting a new routine: dinner at Josh's on Wednesdays.  To facilitate this, I've asked Dan to pick up Natalie at Josh's after work instead of at my house. This actually turns out to be better for him: it's closer or more direct or just allows him to avoid driving on Rt. 10 -- I don't remember which and it is really irrelevant to my story.  In order not to feel guilty about suddenly becoming a Wednesday night fixture at Josh's, I offered to make the dinner most of those evenings which  gives me a chance to cook.  I enjoy cooking but no longer have much of an opportunity to do so.

At 1:30, I packed up the dinner which I had prepared before hand (it only required finishing touches) and Natalie and we proceeded to Josh's house.  Playing with my grandchildren (or watching them play) warms me.  I love seeing their interaction -- more so when they are not fighting.  I needed this yesterday because I had descended into a "nobody loves me - nobody wants me" mood after receiving several rejections from part-time bank teller jobs to which I had applied.

All went well and I was even able to vent a little at the table during dinner.  I was surprised to find that they agree with me more than I expected them to.  Part of me still expects everyone to take David's side no matter what.  The evening was far to short since I had to leave soon after dinner because my dogs had to be fed and walked.

Lo and behold -- when I got home there was a message on my answering machine from the hiring manager at Stop and Shop, Terry.  She wants to interview me.  You can't imagine how happy I felt -- someone may actually want me!  Okay, let's get real.  I want a part-time job so that I have a reason to get up and dressed in the morning.  Stop and Shop is really close to the house -- this may work but it is Stop and Shop and who knows what they are looking for and offering.  I am not getting too excited.  I have no intention of pulling night shifts every night of the week.

But at least someone is showing interest.  I tried calling back this morning but Terry will be in meetings until after 1:00.  I'll call back later and see where this goes.  At the moment I am going to hold on to the good feeling of "somebody wants me"!